Note(s) to DeAndré
October 6, 2004
From Teddy to LovieI Love You.With all my heart I do, and I can't say that I will never leave you because I don't like that word 'never' or the word 'perfect' because I know basically everything is possible and nothing's perfect. You basically know how I feel about you and you know about the future. You know my thoughts and I tell you my feelings. If you don’t know what my thoughts or feelings are and you’d want to know, just ask. Don’t be scared or anything because I’ll answer anything you ask me. I want to be with you, go through all your pains, be with you if any tears you shed for happy or sad. I’ll cry those tears that you don’t want to shed. No one can ever take us away from each other, and other opinions shouldn’t matter because we know how we feel about each other and everything and that is what matter the most. Don’t get so worked up about things, especialy what my mom thinks of you, I know you want at least one parent ta approve but it takes time for everything, so be patient and things will go right. It will trust me. I feel like we are those most luckiest couple ever because we found each other. I kind of hate to say it but you are what I want in my life, my husband, you are everything that I want. The reason I don’t like saying that is because when I do say that, something goes wrong and something happens. I know we’ll get through it. We’ll get through our hard times together and make good memories together. You’re all I want. You’re I need. You’re all I wish for.
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November 11, 2004
Teddy wants Lovie to Know…I hope you know that I love you and I will as long as I can. You and only you really make me happy. No one else can make me happy and laugh as much as you. I’d cry for you I’d do anything for you. You are just so great to me, and hopefully it’s vice versa too. I sometimes wonder if I’m doing the right things or if I’m annoying or doing something that you get tired of. I’m sorry that I’d be emotional at times but I guess it’s just how I am. I just hope that you stick by my side as much as possible cause if I do lose you, it’d hurt me so much I wouldn’t know what I’d do with my life or anything like that. You bring the sunshine in my life and I thank you for that. Even you might have your doubts on things and your scared, I love you and I won’t do anything to hurt you and I wouldn’t want to break up with you for any reason. You really do make me happy and make me smile like all the time. I’m so happy that we found each other. I’m glad we can talk the way we do and be how we are. I Love you DeAndré. I Love you so much.
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November 23, 2004
+Happy two…we’ll get through more events+happy two months and when I told you that it wasn’t long I meant that the time differenece. I’ve been in a longer relationship that’s why I think it’s short but it didn’t mean nothing to me at all it meant a lot to me of what we’ve been through and how we’re still together and still loving each other more then before and make each other so happy. We know what’s going on with each other and can be so comfortable with each other and I love how we have that. You make me laugh and smile so much. I thank life(I didn’t say god cause I’m not religious like that) so much that we found each other and are together. I really can see my life with you. I’d be so happy…we’d be so happy and smiling all the time. Although we’d probably sleeping a lot too. All I really want in life is for us to be together and that you’re happy. When you asked me what I wanted for christmas…I really just want you, I want to be with you sitting or laying in your arms all comfortable and warm. It’d make me the happiest person ever. I’d be happy too if I were to be able to talk to you at least but being with you or seeing you would make me even more happy. I love you with all my heart. I truly do, I did say that I still love Jake but it’s not as strong as how much I love you. I only feel the way I do about Jake when I’m with him or like talk to him a lot. I do think of others and how they’re doing, I wouldn’t mind calling some people up and ask them how they’re doing but I don’t think I’d have anything to say to them because it’s been so long and I wouldn’t be as comfortable with them as I am with you. I mean I guess the only way I’d be comfortable with someone is if I start talking about poop and pee and all that, that’s why I’m so like open. When I talk about poop and pee and that kind of stuff it’s because talking about that stuff can get me not to worry and usually I talk and play around. It’s the best way to get comfortable with someone too. You should know that I will love you as long as I can and the letter you gave me. I love it. I can tell that it came from the heart and it made me smile just reading it. I love you dearly. I miss you like crazy too. Hope you know that I’ll love you no matter what happens.
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January 12, 2005
~*~Still holding on~*~ This past few weeks we’ve gone through so much and suffered with so much pain but in the end we’re still holding on to each other because that’s all we really have left, just me and you. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused and I’m sure you are too. I try to make the most of things and when I’m with you I just go crazy. You know I love you and only you when I’m with you I’m so happy because I’m with you and you just make me smile just by looking at you because I know we’ll have a great future together. 4 months is coming up. the time period that the month passes by seems so little but it’s really long because so many things happen in our lives and we both experience it together. We learn something each day, whether it’s about life itself or about each other. We get moody at times but we don’t take it too personally (I try not to anyways) with a new year, we’ll make it the best because we found each other to make each other happy and to make this world change one bit at a time whether we know it or not. Some things that I say to you and hurt you, I’m sorry I really don’t mean it. People do things a lot and they don’t think, we all make mistakes. For all the times that I’ve hurt you so far I’m truly sorry, and please forgive me. I guess I wonder kind of a lot that I have someone as great as you and it just scares me because it’s too good to come true. At times when we’re on the phone, we might not be talking much and I make a big deal out of it at the time but when I think about it, I’m glad that I get to at least be on the phone with you to know that you’re okay and everything. But sometimes when I get sad or mad because you’re doing something and not paying attention to me…well I guess I just want attention because I don’t feel as though I get enough. You know I love you and I know that you love me, even when I’m with you I miss you so much and I get sad sometimes because I don’t want you to leave my side (even if it’s for just a short time) I want to be with you with every step you take and I want to know everything I can about, all the things you’re willing to tell me anyways. I love you with all my heart and you should know that no matter what happens…just know that I love you.
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June 30, 2005
~*~Met Them~*~ Throughout the months we’ve changed in many ways, good and bad. Now we see each other like how we started off and I love it. I hate those days when I don’t see you I hate those minutes that I’m away from you. Really to tell you the truth, I want you all to myself but of course I can’t have that as much as I ask for it. I want to be with you every minute and every second, it’s just so hard for me to deal with being away from you and knowing that you’re still happy without me. Every time you’re near another girl, no matter what she means to you, I get jealous, it’s hard not to, but I just see her smiling because of you and I’m just standing on the other side wondering why you’re not by my side getting me to smile. I hate to be this much in love because I know I can get hurt so easily...although I do know that I can go on no matter what. At times I wonder how you can put up with me, and vice versa but we seem to always manage to get through. I know it’s been a while since I’ve put anything in here or said stuff like this, and you did ask me about it, but it’s like I’ve been so busy and not bothered even about my page that it’s just disappeared, I don’t know how to explain it. You know I love you, I only really tell you rarely but I hope that I do show it to you at least, there are so many things to look forward to with our future together and I’m really excited about it cause I know we’ll be smile...I can’t say all the time but we’d be smiling most of the time. I hope you know that I love you and I’ll try not to get jealous all the time, no guarantees though, and try to remember especially when I’m mad, that you love me and all that good stuff =) and meeting the family isn’t all that bad is it? I love your mom she’s awesome. Me meeting your family was good, you meeting my family was okay...and we shouldn’t worry about what they say, but of course they always get me. I love you DeAndre Simms always...
